My ally

as i lay in black sorrow
thorns ran down my cheeks
scratching, tearing, hurting

despair and numbness
became my ally

pity helplessness fear and anger
awoke the velvety substance
underneath my skin

unable to see
unable to decide
i froze

despair and numbness
became my ally

fear of wrongly chosen path
knocked like a woodpecker

indecision in the hole that was once a cheerful heart
as darkness encompasses the mind

despar and numbness
became my ally